19.06.17 I visited the psychologist for the second time. We talked about my work. I mean about situations with my perpetual dismissalS.
I suggested that the same situation repeats again and again in my life. But Anna told me that all events were different!!!!
And again I was puzzled. I have already desided that it is my fate (destiny), that all these events are not occasional, that all of them are result of my nature, of internal condition of my brain. That I just can't keep profesional conversation efficiantly with others in a long term.

In addition we discussed my straightforwardness. In result of last 38 years, I desided that this is not my advantage. At least this human quality is not profitable for me especially taken together with the lack of flexibility.....
And again Anna puzzled me again when she asked me if I think that my straightforwardness is weakness of my personality....
I thought at that moment may be l'm not so bad as I think about myself....

Additionally Anna told she see the tendency in my personality to control the circumstances in my life.
And that I Don't have a toehold (foothold). I Don't trust to anything or anyone.
I need to think about it....