Phantom, Oh, Phantom... where is ur shelter now? I wish I could be there for u. I wish could be Christin. I whish...too much whishing...People reading this note will say that I am insane. And i must say they will be right. But I need some one to love me as u loved Christin. And there is only one person able to love like this- you. But u are not a man of my realyty. In my dreams u're always with me, but in the real world, i have to live in there is no such man as u. and never will be. My world showes no compation to me. And besides i need more. I need consuming love, music of the night. I need someone who'll show me strange new worlds. I need someone to make me fell as i've never lived before. In my heart u're always with me. But my mind tells me that i am growing up.... I'll become older, more realistic and cinical. It happens to all of us... ( I mean for the main part) I'll see the only meaning of my life in making money. I'll forget my dreams and my mysterious worlds i created in my mind. And then your face will become a face in the darkness....Oh, God! I whish it wasn't the truth. But for me th story wil end like this. Knowing that all my dreams of extrordinary love are not coming true ever drives me crazy. Phantom, Oh, Phantom, Oh..... Phantom. I am only glad that it is not happening today!

I whish I knew why i am writing to u all this, knowing that u are not going to read it....O, Phantom. We are bouth children "of the wilderness, bor into emptyness. We have to learn to be lonely. They say that life canbe lived and loved alone... I'll never get used to it. Or at least i'll do my best! I shall look for u as long as I remember u. Good night Phantom!

Current music: Music of the night (Phantom)
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