He was sitting and looking at the new image of his diary and was satisfied, basically. Although his eager young mind was always very demanding, it was satisfied this time. He knew: aybe it was due to physical and emotional growth, which always reflects on ones character and usually in a bad way. In this particular case it might have resulted in a less emotional attitude to things.

After a short while he realised one more thing. The brand new image of his good old diary was a reflection of his growing self-confidence and independence, emotional stability he used to have problems with. That has been a discovery which sorted things out. The new way of looking at everything around was all there in the colours he used. They were saying:

"It's a brick world with artificial environment and likewise artificial people destroying all we see around by writing it in formulas and science theories, killing our natural emotional attitude. There are still small pieces of nature between giant brick cities as an option of reminding yourself of what really is beautiful, but soon it might be gone as well as the freedom of thinking and feeling. This will be due to mass media which forms the minds of tomorrow in the further the worser way.

The worst thing about it, to my mind, is that sooner or later there will be no place left to come and feel unlinked to the society. There will be nothing to admire and nothing to discuss, but anthropogene. But now and still we are happy to claim that we are more or less free, more or less emotional and more or less lonely, which some of us consider as a bad thing, but that's not for sure. I should be happy as if I'd been one of the last people alive. "


When he told me all that I just smiled and said it war that pessimism all adolescents posess in a way, but deep hesitation was born deeply inside my mind...

Sound of the shell Muse. Hyper Chondriac Music
and i'm feelin ...... stuck in a groove