My dear, Cedric,

I have so many times noticed that all the things/thoughts you have for a period of time - once come to one point, jigsaws falling into place. They all merge and start represent something meaningful.
Today was such a day.
And yeah, I'm hight today - but the word is actually too rude. For it's a highen soberness.
I'm crusing currently right now.
The todays' trip was totally devoted to you. I couldn't but think about you. And have sent a bunch of wonderful thoughts. But what I really wished - was that you were me at this evening. To see everything through my eyes, to see what I saw.
Jigsaws falling into place.
When I got up today - I felt as if I were you, I felt complete apathy and depression. Yeah.. it may be explained like when you comunicate with a person for some time you exchange something (not words or thoughts) but some sort of energy. And it has contagious nature. Like I became ill with your "illness" for sometime.
Look, they say there're 6 milliards people on our planet. What part of these people do you know? The tiniest. And that makes me feel - well... I'm even sure - that those people whom we meet are not in vain. We meet them on purpose. And that's why the chance give us an opportunity to know the certain people and to get their "energy". Get their influence. I'm not saying about hundreds contacts in Facebook about whom you know only their birthday data, and just because the system reminds you about it. No. You should get to know this person and take or give something out of him/her.
You won't deny that you are unique. This IS true. Perhaps that's why, there're so few people around you, or even they are too far. That's the rarest chance.
"We are not ants who communicate just to build their ant-hil" - this idea was just in the film I saw in the cinema this evening.
So are me and you. It was not just by chance that we in some one-in-a-million chance got acquainted. Not saying about mutual appeal.
Have you noticed this - when you are in love, all the time you are concentrated on one person - so it seems that you live only while kissing your beloved. All the rest time is just waiting for this moment.
And we talked about this yesterday: all the life people just waiting for life. They invest into the future, keep their memories about the past. They just preparing for living, they do not actually. Or at least this moments are so rare. Time, Cedric, is made by memory. What is happening is just NOW, this very moment.
Start living.
Start perceive.
And start enjoy this very second.
With no fears and thoughts apart those, about this very moment.
L'inévitabilité du bonheur
You told me you had thought I might be a God and might save you. That's it! I'm not a God, of course, but I can give something, we have met for this.
Please do what I'll tell you to do right now. Please, trust me. Please, do everything stricitly in this oder.
- Order methylone in the net (it should be in crystalls, white powder)
- Do it
- While trip take you favourite music and go outside. If you are not in Paris, thet'll do also - be on the nature.
- After 2-3 hours watch "Waking life" film.

If you don't do this - we'll never talk again. I'm sorry. That's just should be. We are talking only while this month or so, while the order will be delivered to you. What after that - you'll tell me yourself.

I so much want you to be happy.
Hugs and Kisses.
-Nat

Состояние: He's reading it at this moment