It's amazing how I never hurry anywhere and never get surprised at anything at school. Yesterday I cought an english reply to my father's question on the tip of my tongue, but managed to swallow it back and reply in russian. Some day will come when I will unconsciously say something in english and have totranslate it afterwards.

Today I found myself talking slowly and reluctantly, with no particular involvement. I am afraid of it as a first step of my change. I hope to be able to reduce the reason for this way of talking to having underslept today.

I'm getting to be even more of an intravert than I have been before.

I want to close these notes from other people's eyes, but I won't, since I believe that sending problems to the internet is just a way of getting rid of them.