I'm so tired of feeling like i'm missing something really important... This feeling haunts me everyday, every fucking time, when i alone! And I fly into the rage, 'cos i'm able to get, what is that, that i'm missing, and why it's so important... That is important, i feel that.

I'm so fucking tired of being depressed, being loaded, of self-stupify, of self-mind, of fucking playing some role... I can't get away from this, and that make me sad too.
I've been doing so many times, and now i can't find fucking meaning of fucking life... That press me.

"Every our action draws a chain of logical consequenstions, but they're depend on only attitudes of others to you." Lukianenko said at the "Maze of images".
That's right. And therefore - there is no Good and Evil, every action is judjed only on the basis of relationships between you and other.

В ритме InVert - Smth 'bout Nthg
В общем, misunderstanding