Is it good or bad that our college class is going to be the first class to experience the new innovations of the college?
Is it good or bad that Philadelphia is becoming the Capital of the Internet, since there is going to be wireless network built, covering 135 square miles?
Is it good or bad that I'm wasting so much time working for the store (which at least got some clients), while I can create my own ad, and charge less, take all the money, but have less clients?
Is it good or bad that when that girl from the "pack of freshmen" fell in love with me, and I found out about it, I did nothing, and now I think I like her, as I remember her? Moreover, I've seen her recently, we waved to each other, but that's it?
Is it good or bad that I'm not in relationship for so long?
Is it good or bad that I anticipate college, but have doubts about my private life, thinking that I really need to do something about it?
Is it good or bad that I'm actually starving for a relationship, but not doing anything about it?
Is it good or bad that I persuaded my friend not to steal something, that he could easily steal, and that would be of a great value for me?
Is it good or bad that I'm writing all this?
Is it good or bad that we don't know anything about beyond this world?
Is it good or bad that I can't find music partners?
Is it good or bad that I'm sharing many things with many people?
Is it good or bad that I still feel love to the girl I'm supposed to forget about?
Is it good or bad that lately I can't control the feelings so much as I could before, and some things even force me to almost crying condition (still got some strength to raise the mood back)?
Is it good or bad that I did not take another four credit Business Management class in college, even though I could, because my tuition would cover it?
Is it good or bad that I left the idea of creating the college band?
Is it good or bad that I speak friendly with a girl in college very much, but I also consider her very much?
Is it good or bad that I'm in the same college as my friend Venya?
Is it good or bad that I'm living at home in my college time?
Is it good or bad that I can't stop writing?
Is it good or bad that I decided not to wear the mask of originality, but just be simply nice polite and right person?
Is it good or bad that I like the music that I make, while not many others like it, and it's not how it usually is in the most inspired musicians' world?
Is it good or bad that right now I'm in such a condition that allows me to study a lot, but at the same time, I hate this condition?
Is it good or bad that I still read my not-to-be-love's journal?
Is it good or bad that I desperately need intimacy, to the point where I wouldn't even really care if I have strong feelings for her?
It's all bad.
For some reason something bothers me, and I just can't be calm. I don't know what is it. At this time the only two cures I see are to find what bothers me OR to get involved in a loving nice relationship. I say it a lot, but I don't do any moves. It doesn't keep me from studying, it actually makes me study more. But I hate to be this way.
I wanna loooooove.
Good night folks.
Current music: stupid shit